Why take this journey?

Many might wonder why should they take this journey? Wouldn’t it be easier to just let things be as they are? Why should you start digging your past? That’s how I thought for years, if I even thought about these things.

For most of my life I have thought that I have a good self-esteem, that I love myself and know myself as good as anyone can. But I could not have been more wrong. I also thought that I could not do anything about it by myself. I had no idea about how to get to know myself. But when I finally admitted to myself that something must be done, my path started to slowly open up in front of me.

I started my journey on my own. I started learning about life traps, different personality traits and chakras etc. For myself the most important step was starting therapy. I got some help understanding that I did not have good self-esteem, did not care, let alone love myself nor did I know myself. During therapy we went through my life events and I started gradually to understand why I was in the situation that I was in. At the same time I continued the journey on my own, learning about myself in various different ways (life traps, chakras, meditation etc). My self-esteem started getting better, I started to love myself and to know myself better. I finally learned how to meditate, with the help of chakras. This has been a great help to me on my journey. I also started to enjoy moving my body, mostly because of yoga. I started to trust my body more and to learn and trust that I could accomplish many things with it. I had made myself believe that my body wasn’t able to perform and I didn’t even like it. Nowadays I am an avid lover of yoga and hiking, despite the fact that I am overweight. Before I always thought that I couldn’t enjoy these things before I got my excess weight off. But it has been a really important lesson to learn that I can enjoy these things despite my weight.

After I was brave enough to start this journey, I am feeling a lot better, both mentally and physically. I have these moments that I can not believe how could I feel. Are other people feeling like this, why hasn’t anyone told me that this could be possible? (Maybe someone has, but I didn’t believe them) I thought that life should be struggling (traditional finnish pessimism). Nowadays life is lot brighter. Of course there are bad moments and bad days, but now it is easier get past them, because I am more attuned with myself.

So, if you want to learn to enjoy your life, this is a trip to take. If you feel that you cannot find the beginning of your journey, try again, try different things, ask for help (e.g. therapy) and don’t give up!

For myself, this journey has been and still continues to be, the most important journey of my life. During this journey I has learned so much about myself, I have learned how to accept myself (faults and all), learned to love myself, learned to take care of my body and it has even given me some new ideas for the future. I cannot remember a time when I waited so excitedly for the future.